Spring Cleaning

I decided to start my spring cleaning today. No ordinary spring cleaning It’s about digging deeper, getting into the crevices and doing away with the dirt.

Although I have started my head already hurts. Theres more to this that I thought. Not just buckets and rags, I need a big bottle of detergent to help me out. I thought spring cleaning was dusting and a light wipe, putting a few things in boxes to give away. Today feels like moving day.

I could have had help if I had asked I guess. Yet what would I have said to those that did. I need to get rid of everything and go to ground zero. There’s so much to do. Where do I begin.

I guess it all begins with the thought of what you are to accomplish. How deep do you want to go and what does it include? I’d give away my brains if I could yet that is about all I want to keep. There’s so much clutter. I’ve held onto so much that now I look at it and have no idea where to start. Do I give away or give back all the things that were given to me. Those innuendo’s and ideas that seem to come back now and again. I don’t use any of this any more. Nothing fits so that means it all has to go. I think I will get boxes and bins to toss it all into. Labels and envelopes to send it all away to those whose words are still here. I wish I could say get out but would that do any good. I think I have to now the reasons why first, don’t I?

I have gotten this far so how far do I want to go? I want to say I won’t know myself anymore. It all has to go. Clean slate, ground zero, begin again with out hesitation. I think I will call a truck and get a shovel. Let you all know how I did next time.

Polarized

We come into this world as being born(positive) and then many years later we die(negative).

Do we really understand the reality of this polarization? When thinking about this I realized everything we are is polarized. We have positive and negative thoughts. Our emotions are positively or negatively driven, and our lives are motivated with what we see as the same determination in the choices we make. I believe we don’t really have an understanding of why we do what we do, understand what we have or become what we become. We look for validation in a reality of our choice and when that validation is negatively charged we negate it. I call it hiding under the covers hoping the monsters will go away. We also have realizations over what we emotionalize as something positive. Same as hiding yet we dive into it looking for validation when we really should realize something else. Maybe it doesn’t fit, we want it so bad we chose to ignore the consequences it may have. Being present is the only representation of true validity. Right here how do I feel, what emotion is conjuring up inside me. Gut reaction to make it simple. Am I pushing it into reality because of fear, judgement or scarcity, or am I seeing it with clarity in a neutral way?

Can we see our realities as a neutral place to find validation. See if looking good only is a temporary fix or does it take you to a better understanding again in a neutral way. Do you see it clearly or do you see it through the window of a less than clean windowpane?

See your moments as valued. There is something in every moment of the day and every second validate reality in its simplest form. Love. Create peace around yourself by not viewing your choices as positive or negative only by what it serves you, a way to a better reality.