Rain Sanity (insanity)

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Rain brings sanity. Drops of water falling down, drip drop on the window panes of life, bringing insanity to the quietness of the day. You can look at it either way yet it’s still rain. Water cleanses the pain of fearful thoughts, it washes away the pain of inner stillness.

We aren’t used to stillness. We haven’t had a long relationship with the quiet that comes as the mind evaporates. We are regulated to noise, enveloped in activity and most of the time we are crazy filling our head with ideas to keep us busy. What do we do with the long hours of nothingness? Nothing to do, no places to go, to take over the time we have to think about what we don’t want to think about. What is that something we don’t want to think about?

What does it take to discover ourselves? It takes a quiet moment, a moment of rain. The rain of sanity as it washes away the grime we have accumulated inside. It drips and rolls down the panes of glass as the window stares outward and we stare back seeing the true reflection of us. The rain brings a steady drone or hum that magnetizes our minds liken to a production line of same thinking. The stories that are so interbred, we can’t remember why or where they began. As rain can clean away the dust so can the sanity the rain, bring peace to the mind.

Social distancing requires people yet solitary drops require more drops to make a thunder storm. Rain heals the distance between us and them. Stand outside and believe that there is sanity in the rain as it hits your face and you laugh. Play tag with the rain drops try and see if you can walk in-between. First you need to be insane and then you know.

Rain is the sanity we need right now. The rain that cleanses the dust and winter blues. Rain that makes the grass grow and the tulips bud. Sanity comes as the clouds part and you can see beyond the rain and see the healing of the sun and summer coming.

Peace out and let the sanity of the rain come down. Let the insanity of these times move away like Winter into Spring, where once again we can see the healing of the days to come.

Taco’s And Time Out’s


It’s about time. It’s about no time clocks and appointments.It’s about time spent for anything we want to do with it. It’s about alone time and time spent without others. It’s about sometime in the future when things will be normal. It’s about what is normal and what will never be the same again.

It’s abut time to bake cookies with our kids. It’s about time to do what time never allowed. It’s about time to unwind with our feet up, read a book, get caught up on a series or play cards and too while away the time. It’s about time we share, time we make and time we can trade for better days.

What’s on your time menu? How will you spend the time you now have? Get up and get time off your mind. There’s enough time now for all of us to understand what it’s like to be without time restrictions. What time is it? Who cares. Make time for your family and get whatever you want done, done.

For me it’s taco’s and time out. Time for me to have fun making, creating and sitting down with the people I love. To laugh, love and make funny faces. To say I have all the time in the world to forget about all those little things that got in the way. To say, “It’s about no time limit.” I have been procrastinating abut playing the guitar, now I have time. That crazy long book that has gathered dust, guess what I’m reading it. I pruned some plants today, I think they would thank me if they could.

Take the time, you have the time, believe that time has given us the gift of time to remember who we are and why we are here.

Peace out before my computer dies.

Alice Wants To Know.

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As inquisitive creatures we want to know. We want to know everything we can. We need to absorb it all, no matter the price. Are we paying the price now, for wanting to know. What do we know and do we know anything really? Do we know what’s important? Do we understand the knowledge when it doesn’t seem to fit into our habits and lifestyle;e. Do we tend to ignore the warning signs? Because if we did, we would have to change our “habits.”

I know a person who is inquisitive. I actually like to hang out with her because she’s real. Real in a sense that if I screw up she let’s me know. If I’m being mental she gives me a flick to remind me to be better and if I’m not mindful well I get reminded. Her name is Alice and I first met her a long time ago when she led me down the rabbit hole. She actually gave me the push down when I wanted to do nothing more than scramble backup. Once you start the downward slide you need to go all he way, she used to say to me. If you don’t is doesn’t count. I wanted to know more than I was scared so one day I took that trip, slid and discovered wonderland.

She came with me my Alice, because without her it would have been just a temporary vacation and not an amazing discovery. I took myself down the forest path to bee my reflection in the mirrored pool. I saw who I am and who I could become. I have learned to this place so I go a lot these days. I don’t always go with Alice every time because she is always by my side. I know my way around and when I get to see the Madd Hatter it’s the greatest awakening, as tea with Mara is tea without compromise.

All you have to do is close your eyes and look for Alice. She’s always by the Bodi tree, always waiting to help. She will gift you with a promise of better days and more understanding. She will show you the way and then you will be on your own yet you will be fine. Each time you close your eyes, turn inward and breathe you slide into the root of the tee. Take the way down through your consciousness and feel free. Walk through the forest of contemplation with each breath. When you finally get to believe you will always be guided to see, to be and to have tea. Sometimes it’s Mara and she will give you your identity and sometimes it is the Madd Hatter, Buddah consciousness, Hope to see you there. It’s a great time to begin to meditate, to feel the freedom of the breath and to find your true self. Nothing else really matters once you get to Wonderland.

Peace Out. Love to all of you.

What Do I Say To All Of You?

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What DO I say? How can I express to all of you what words are on my mind.

I struggled the morning as to what to write about. Media is such a strong front right now for a lot of people expressing their negatives and or their positive views. So how does one puruse this arena of choice words and interpretations and keep us all in the right mood. WE love to express our thoughts, our intentions, our moods yet we sometimes forget what we are really wanting to say. What do we say to the millions that come here to find some solace in the pause in their life. We are all in our own void, a black hole that we have had no choice than to go into. Our ship has lost power, our motors are burnt out and our faith has fallen into a sink hole.

What do I say? I want to be helpful. I want to give the advice everyone wants to read yet are we ready for the truth. So what truth do I have to offer? Truth is personal, truth can break your heart and yet truth can be uplifting once we get to know it better. We have all lived busy lives, lives filled with to do lists that are really empty reality. A bucket list that could be emptied right now and filled later with positivity. Ideas and feeling felt in a way we have not experienced in our lifetime. I want to say its a complete “let go” of the way we were and a understanding of what could be next.

How can we even begin to understand it? Again this is something I have struggled with. All those self help books we are running to read are not available to help us with this. Judging, blaming, shaming is not the way to go and meditation may not help those who have never meditated before. I believe the only source we can find information in right now is the mirror. Yup, the mirror. Honesty, compassion and love through the mirror image. I can’t imagine some of the things people are going through right now. Yet I do know where we can start. Stop worrying about the appointments cancelled for non necessary things we all do. I did. We can all exercise in the fresh air and keep social distance. We can be social with the people we love, those we forget about when life happens. I know I’ve said it before but I bet if you ask your family one thing about themselves you will be amazed at the information that will flow. You will hear yourself saying, “OH, I didn’t know that?” You will be amazed. We can face the mirror stare at the person lost and get to know them again.

Mirror mirror on the wall can I get through this? Yes you can, we can and we will. We will come together with a new perspective based on what is realistic for our growth and not the unrealistic expectations we have allowed to weed our personal gardens. We will once again reach out to our neighbours and friends asking for compromise and peace of mind, cooperation and happiness. Let’s not allow entitlement and envy control our voices. Do not give fear a bigger piece of the pie.

I am here for you. I am you and you are me. Equal and yet different. There’s always a reason and now we have the choice to find out why.

Peace out and send it outside. The mirror is calling, go find out what it has to say.


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I seem to be wandering through my mind. My hot air balloon drifting along in a void of consciously being aware of my surroundings. I think if Alice were around she would be intimidated by the surroundings my thoughts have taken. “Where are you,” I can say to myself and I would answer back, “I don’t know.” I think I need to get real and do just that go find myself and save me. I can’t wander in this balloon forever, my mind will go crazy with all the loneliness I am feeling. I wish Alice was here, she’d know exactly what to do.

It is a great time to take a vacation from my life I thought, go fly a kite or like I decided to do get into a hot air balloon and fly around until I would come down. At first it was easy, just being around not doing much liking the fact there is no one around. I forgot to take my phone, left on the bed not realizing it would be forgotten. I took a few things like books, pen and paper, even a old tape recorder so I could talk to myself. Interesting the things we say when alone. No one to argue with, take a different view point or tell you that you are not yourself. Crazy times up here all alone. A rope would have been a good idea because them I could have come down anytime.

Where am I going? What am I doing? I think I have forgotten. I had a plan, a map and my mind thought it was all amazing. Yet what I forgot was my potential. Eventually I will loose the wind in my sails, the compass won’t work and I most likely will never get to where I had intended myself to go. Such grand ideas. What was I thinking, not reality apparently. It’s time to not think and create.

Off in the distance there is a mountain. I will sail there and tie my balloon to the top. I can then collect myself, grab my things and start a new adventure. An adventure that will be worth taking, one that involves doing something instead of wishing it to be true. The experience will be incredible because I won’t make decisions based on history or the stories I tell myself. I can start over and feel free. Nothing I was will be included in the person I will be.

These times have been a learning experience for me. Being by myself I can let go of the stuff I have held onto, “Just because” and find my true meaning to life. I can decide to move forward in a new direction and not look back on “My history” to guide me but faith that is binding. It’s time to shut off the tv, talk to people and not my phone and yes read a book. I can’t invite others over but I can invite myself into my own world and write my story.

I will make it, we will all make it through this. How we do depends on each of us and collectively. Don’t be afraid of being lonely. Don’t be afraid to spend this time on a new resume or baking bread. Find something interesting to do. There’s a real world out there waiting to be discovered by all of us. Let’s wake up, partake in life and believe in ourselves once again.

I am drifting closer to my mountain and I can see the climb down will be easy. I have the right thoughts, the great mood and the understanding that I trust myself more than ever.

Peace out and find the faith in you.

Did You Hear The DoorBell? (Your Life Is Calling)

Hello can someone answer the door? Hey there’s someone at the door.Is there anyone home besides me, wait I’m coming.

Have you looked outside today? I did and I swear I saw tumble weed rolling down the street. Then I looked again and It seemed like the animals of the world have taken over. Where have we all gone?

Oh yeah, I remember indoors. We did this a while back when we developed the web, the web stores, web games and now web infected viruses. Next it will take over our brains. I feel like I’m in a science fiction movie. I think if I could have chosen the movies I’d rather be in Star Wars.

I don’t know if I want to answer the door. It could be an alien dressed as a salesman wanted to sell me everything I don’t want. He may be infected with that virus that has shown up on our doorsteps. Some say it came from China in all the goods we buy there. Oh my I guess I better check those amazon packages I have. Some say we did it to ourselves by being so unhealthy. We tend to smoke too much, drink too much and eat way to much unreal foods. Who can say. I say don’t go and blame anyone or anything. I say do something positive today. Right here, right now. We may have caused this and that was yesterday. Now in this moment the best choices can get us back on the right track. Now this is personal. Only you and I can make decisions that effect us in the way we live. To judge, blame or shame is only drama and hoping someone else gets us out of this is definite fake news.

So now do I sit here in fear and not answer the door? Ask who it is through the peep hole? What if it’s my neighbour and he needs my help? Do I pull out the shotgun and send him running? So much fear, way too much fear. Instead of being afraid and shaking in our boots let’s reach out to our intelligence and say I got this. Do something positive, honest and what I call living free.

I will be the first to stand up and say, We are all connected and the choices we have made to make life easier have led to this. I’m staying home and facing my fears head on. Doing my due diligence and being honest in my own misgivings. I may not smoke or drink, do drugs or over eat yet does that mean I won’t be affected by this? Hell no. I may have to face my untruths, my emotions and my behaviours. It will hit us in so many ways. Talking to our children when we haven’t for a long time. Giving our family more compassion that we have also in a long time and actually sitting down and being compassionate to yourself first and then to another.

Take a deep breath, face the demon head on and take this life to the next level. Just like a video game we are the controller of what happens to us, our family and our world. Be the avatar you have been meant to be.

Peace Out and Be Strong.

A Is For……

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A is for? A could be for apple is we are talking about the alphabet or fruit, yet you may have already figured it out I’m not.

A could be for adorable, admirable or available. It could also mean angry. A today stands for adaptable, adjust and aware. For any of us to get through these times we need to be adaptable to the changing times. Adapt to what was, never to be again and now is, in so many ways. If the future is not recognizable then to adapt to this new future is a must. In science we see adaptogens. We know that throughout time we have had episodes of epigenetic occurring on a frequent basis. Now its up to us. We either adapt to the changes or maybe we too become extinct.

Once we can sort of understand this adapting of new implications, there will also have to be a time of adjustment. We are about to walk into an unknown. Something none of us here has considered could be an option. There’s nothing in the history books lately that told us of hard times because of a virus. A virus that could “cull” the human race a few billion. Yet here we are. It will take years before the final impact is felt and I hate to say it unless each person is willing to adapt and adjust they won’t make it. This is no longer our parents world. It’s the new world that Huxley spoke of.

I have faith in all of us. I also have faith in the unknown and that is where I want to be. I will adapt when it’s all said and done. I will adjust each and everyday without withholding anything that should be given up. We have been given a new lease on life in which we can take full advantage of if we remain aware.

All said and done, I leave you with peace and surreality. Let’s choose better, challenge ourselves more and see if we can change today for a greater tomorrow.

Peace Out and be brave.

PH Levels

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PH levels are changing our outlook on the way we look at our lives. PH levels of positive vs negative as the thoughts we process go from ground floor to the penthouse in seconds flat. How are we integrating these novel configurations in a mind that has maintained us for a long time.

Let’s start with P. P is for, first off, Present. A present that presents us with a moment of thought and ideas of expressions. The idea of present keeps us safe, keeps us in the now and gives us a heads up against the fears we carry. We cannot do anything about this new future, all bets are off. The past doesn’t carry any weight either so why bother. Secondly P is for positive. Positive reinforcements will be available for us to experience if we stay in the present. Theres nothing we can do except occupy the corner we now live in. It’s a great time to discuss, not only with our personal self but with others, what we care about. The last P in my pocket is Potential. The craziest things happen when you put this out there. The closet gets emptied, the mind garbage is disposed of and we can see something more. Fear falls away, the present moment gives us reassurance that we CAN get through this and we may even figure it out.

H Has its own potential.

H begins with Happiness. I bet theres some in you. Can you stand in the centre of your place of being and show fear you have a happy side. Crack a stupid joke and replace the fear with joy. The fact that you have a place to hold your ground. That you have a full fridge and that you have family that loves you dearly. H number 2 is Hope. Can’t get from A to B without it. Hope provides awareness. Hope sends us messages that this will get better. It has too at some point. Keep yourself busy, whether you can work from home or still are one of the lucky ones who have a job. If you have been temporarily lost or had your job suspended maybe the gift is to take an online course. Read those books that you have not had time too, read to your children. Cook, bake and to hell with the healthy diet. If it makes you happy it will keep you healthy. The last is Healing. Sometimes life does throw us curve balls and I think we all saw this coming. We have let our health go to the bottom as we climbed the social ladder. The tomorrows of yes I will eat better, exercise, and give back have now come to be truths. Healing of the body will keep you healthy, healing of the mind will help you let go of all those unnecessary things, no longer worth anything, in the way you live. Fear has no purpose and the spirit will thrive. So do yoga, dance in the living room and give your soul a source to believe in.

PH. Choice, Challenges and Change. Thats why we are all here. There’s only one present moment and this is ours.

Peace Out.

Held Hostage

Are we being held hostage?

Isn’t it ironic? Can it be true? Why?

As a human being I thought that I was the only “thing” on this planet that could take anyone hostage? Are I not a thinking, acting and reacting idea? Makes me wonder whose actually in charge.

Let’s take ourselves back to the beginning of time. A beginning where creation took place and time might have stood still. If man had not yet come about in the schema of things what began was a virus. A bacteria in cellular form in a manipulation of circumstance. So isn’t it ironic that this same bacteria, virus has come about to cull the human race?

This is how it happens when one has too much “time” on their hands. We begin to wander about in our thoughts and wonder how this could have happened. Like a 1950’s science fiction movie where extra large larvae come out of nowhere and begin to destroy mankind. Or maybe it was the Blob. This is our science fiction movie. Everything we have taken for granted is being taken back. We are about to become the null and void.

Maybe it’s time to throw the baby out with the bathwater. Time to have a new day dawn or maybe we are living in the Night Of The Living Dead. I don’t have a clue. Today it’s like burnt toast with no butter to soothe the swallow and no milk to wash it down.

So here I sit, pj’s on in the middle of the day. I’m on the couch afternoon tv on and stories in my head. It is my nightmare. I’m about to saunter into the kitchen and make a sandwich which seems unreal. The streets are bare of people and cars, the malls have shut down and theres not even a coffee shop to sit in and listen to all the drama. I have my home, my life and my conscious to keep me company. I think I have everything I need. Internet to keep me interested, food in my fridge to keep me healthy and an indoor trainer for my road bike just in case. Maybe I will get on it and dream I am riding in the Tour de France. I can call my family if I choose, play cards with my partner and laugh uncontrollably at his silly jokes. I may dance to the rhythm of music to my ears and hug myself a million times.

Who knew that a virus could change the world. Who thought that a pandemic could make us choose better choices and who now wants to care. I know I do. I know I want to live another day maybe 50 to believe we can. So if it takes a few weeks of slowing down, erasing time and loving those around me I will. We can you know, we will.

Peace out and if you need to talk send me an email. I have lots of “time” to take the time for everything I never have time for.

So Much TIME!

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Can anyone now say that they have “no time” to do something. Can anyone think that the “time” has come to be grateful for the time that they have to do something for themselves? well, now is the time. Time, no time, all the time in the world now comes into play as we hunker down inside of our homes, apartments and dwellings to spend “TIME” with ourselves.

We have had socialization removed from our venues, gatherings reduced to essential concerns and time to spend on ourselves to reveal truths long hidden. What can you do with this time? Can you make it time well spent in positivity or does fear play a bigger part. The fears of the familiar things that we occupy our “time” in. Now is the time to say hey, I can and not I can no longer. What sends you in forward motion and not in what holds you back?

Even though all the things we tend to do to occupy our time has been taken from us there is much more that has been given to us. The time to wake up and feel free from the stress of moving faster than time allows. The time to see our children and have small conversations that lead to bigger ones and time to invent new ideas on how to be healthier and wiser than before. The yesterdays of yesterday are now gone and we have awoken to a new way of living. What we thought would help us is no longer available and it’s now the “time” to take into consideration family and self over social lifestyle. I bet you will learn in the days ahead something new. I bet you will know your self better and the children you are raising too. I know you will make changes to feel better and consume less of the fears and anxiety you are now facing.

Sometimes life has to get complicated, sometimes being complete takes work. Values are changing as validations are sensed into a new way to live to your potential. Spend this “time” to see yourself different when the doors again open to life as “usual.” Think about what you can do to create less stress and anxiety in your lifestyle and always remember, what can you do now, to make this a better place for those to come next. It isn’t “all about us” it’s about the greater whole. What you do today is what your tomorrows will eventually come to be. Nothing stays the same no matter how hard you try to persuade it to be. Be simpler, be courageous in your new thoughts and be a forward thinker and not one stuck in the revolving door to no where. There is no “time” to blame, no place to shame or judge what is right now. There is only room to improve. BE better than your former self, BE stronger in convictions that give you compassion and BE the future you that thrives on positivity. Darkness cannot survive when the lights are on. No shadows to scare you or ideas that will have you running backwards.

On this day of reflection do something that “no Time” allows and place no restriction of “too much time” to do nothing but wallow in self pity. I know these are strong words. Words that I too will take into consideration as I place my day, my life in forward moment.

Piece Out and make good choices.